You’ve been a Christian since infancy (you were probably even reading scripture in the womb). Now that you’re older and more intelligent, you have doubts. The Bible seems illogical, and your hope of Heaven is slowing disintegrating. Your friends, your family, no one knows how to help you as you slip into the abyss of unbelief.
Sound familiar? It should. It happens all the time. A blog post written by ex-Christian, Vanessa Forero, opened my eyes to the suffering that can result from the upheaval of one’s worldview. It was both fascinating and depressing to read about her struggle, her loss of identity, her loss of hope and loss of community.
I frequently hear about ex-Mormons being shunned by their community, but little did I know, loss of community is just one consequence of leaving your childhood faith. As I read her honest and vulnerable record of the excruciating process of “Christian detox,” I began to appreciate just how disrupting a worldview change can be – whether or not your family still speaks to you.
Some struggles she mentions include a lost sense of security/safety, loss of a friend (God), loss of purpose, loss of identity and a feeling of regret at having lived a lie. She provides much more detail in this blog post, even in the form of unfiltered diary entries. You simply have to read her words to feel her pain . . .
“. . .[it’s] like you’re inside an ‘Inception’ dream where reality collapses around you.”
As much as I complain about the difficulties of adjusting to Christian beliefs, I now see it’s not any easier the other way around – in fact, it may be harder. My heart hurts for these people, and burns in anger towards the legalistic Christian culture that can lead to loss of faith. While I don’t claim to understand all of the causes that lead to a loss of faith, I do think that legalism is a significant contributing factor.
I am glad to have run across this insightful blog. It’s forever changed my view of ex-Christians, and the level of compassion I feel for them.